How Can I???

I just realize now… Finally someone noticed me… He hangs around… so long… just sitting, looking, and observing me for a time… I just knew now… NOW… that there is no much time left… it was sad, it was a big mistake ignoring him… while he thinks about me… or at least for a moment, his thoughts are of me… I am whatever focused to other things that I never even gave a little glimpse of him, nor smile at him nor pause and initiate a talking… I am disgusted with myself… now, I’m thinking of him like I never did before… And it hurts to know the realities about him while I am falling… He’s with someone else while I am hoping… He’s getting over me while I’m just starting to like him… He’s not much all about me now, and I miss the way he treated me so sweet and so silently… It was depressing… My heart can’t help but feel the cut… I am hurting… I am missing… I am lost and in despair… how can I ignore him? How can I? How can I… I could have just said a lie…

One BIG Mistake,
AeraH